I have not written for a very long time. Life has a way of keeping us very busy. I'm still learning much, pondering much, changing much, and growing much. Over the next few months, I hope to be able to share some of that with you.
I had been writing about my struggles with my past, and many of the "teachings" I had been raised in. I'm still working through all that. God is loving and gracious and I'm so thankful for His care for my heart. While "unlearning" wrong teachings, practices, ideas of religion and godliness that I was led to believe and practice, it is easy to throw it all away and label everything as nonsense or heresy or legalism. It's tempting to ignore it all and trash everything as just being "man's religion". But God is much greater than the frail and needy picture of Him that is presented to us by "man's religion". He does exist, He is reaching out to me (and you), and He has provided a way for us to truly know Him.
While it is true that much of what I learned and believed is "Man's Religion", I am, however, being cautious to not disown the truth (as it stands alone, without man's interference). I still believe the Bible and its words; but I also understand that man's faulty interpretations and practices of the Bible have often skewed the truth into their own narrow-minded definitions. I know in my soul that God exists, that He loves me personally and wants to care for my heart like no one else can; yet, my perception and understanding of God has been clouded by my own brokenness and the misrepresentations of Him shown by His (professed) faithful followers and "ambassadors". I believe that God has a purpose for my life and experiences, and what I am now learning about Him and His ways, that goes far beyond my own little world and personal circle. I know He wants me to do my best to love others the way He loves me, and to help them understand the freedom He offers in Jesus Christ.
I will be learning until I die. I don't have all the answers and I haven't mastered a perfect life. Please bear with me as I stumble through, and be patient at my failures and mistakes. I am seeking radical freedom in Jesus Christ alone and I believe I'm on the right path, but it is a long journey and a slow process. Join me and we can stumble along together. I know that when the journey gets too rough, Jesus will carry me through. Ultimately, I will have that radical freedom in heaven. Until then, I will enjoy each day becoming more and more free and being who He created me to be.